dear kody,
you really broke my heart into pieces. thats all i have to tell you.
-me.
last night i had a dream that we were fine, we were happy, we loved each other so much, &we had a baby o.o LOL but thats beside the point.
WE WERE HAPPY, thats how we are when we’re together. we love each other sooo much, we always laugh &smile with each other. so i dont get how you cant see that. you only base our relationship from what happens over the phone, when our relationship isnt like that at all. i know we love each other, i know you love me. so for you to just throw it all away like that isnt right. there has to be something wrong. i miss you sooooo much. all i want to do is see you, so even though you said not to come over on sunday, im still going to. we need to talk about this face to face. i know if we do that everything will be resolved.
after i had that dream last night i started to cry cause you technically arent mine at the moment. i hope jadee knocks some sense into you today, to show you that youre just stressed out &stuff. but ill give you some time.
December 25. Ranting on Christmas
Well this is just a rant for now cause its actually the 26th since its 1 AM but i just got off the phone with kody &he gave me the best christmas any girlfriend could ever ask for. You know, throwing the phone when he gets mad at me, being irritated for wanting him to start a conversation, not giving me my christmas wish of him starting a conversation, not putting in any effort, making me cry on christmas. YEAH FUCK YOU KODY. I hope you fucking see this one day. This is how i feel right now, like i want to punch your face &THAT will be my gift to you!
I told him i refused to talk to him till he texted me one long ass apology on why hes sorry..if he even is sorry! UGH. So fucking frustrated i dont even know why i put up with this bullshit. I’m obviously the stupid one for sticking around in this damn relationship. Even my grandma thinks this relationship is unhealthy. FUCK THIS.
I’ll post what i actually did on christmas in another post. Kkkk.
December 24.
Lalalalaaaaa, ITS CHRISTMAS EVVVVEEEE.
Um today i woke up at 9, went to the bank to cancel my checking account &to put the money into my savings. BUT NO, i have to wait another 2 months to do that cause it hasnt been 6 months yet. UGH.
After that, i made cupcakes for my dad. FUCKING DELICIOUSSS. I attempted to make a pumpkin pie last night but it was so disgusting, not edible. GROSS LOL.
What else did i do today? Hmm i went running. Then took a shower, watched tv, went on tumblr, youtube &facebook. Aaaand then got ready to go to my aunties annual christmas party!
Its so weird to see us, aka the kids that used to get so much damn presents we had to bring half to my aunties house to open the night before, and the rest of the kids like corey &deedee &ashley guys, now we get no presents!
But i mean its weird cause now most of the kids from MY generation have kids of their own ._. They’re like a few years older but still. DAMN.
Uhhh yeah! Dinner was super freaking amazing. Although, i did have a hard time cause my stupid holes from my wisdoms D;
We left around 10 something &got back home around 11 pm.
The next big event is tomorrow :D Christmas!
Well technically, it is Christmas already cause its 12:43 AM.
I got a Tommy Hig..something purse from my aunty in reno :D Yaaaay, first christmas present so far x)
Okaaaay.
December 11
Ummm this picture was from December 1st when Daren, Ian, Marisa &I went to watch the city lights parade :D so pretty!
But this week is filled with FINALS. FML.
Last night…or actually early this morning around 4:30 am, some asshole pulled the fire alarm. Like really, really Ilima? Again?
Yesterday i had one final, english. &then i had work till 4. &Today i had two finals; psychology &hawaiian history. I don’t know how i did on any of them -.- UGH. And then after that i had work till 4:30, then i went to the gym.
I have no finals tomorrow :D SO I’m gonna go shoppinnnnng!
My grandma said she had her first radiation treatment today! IM SO HAPPY FOR HER. She’s happy too x)
Uhhhh um. Lets seeeee, my boyfriend is irritating the living shit out of me. We almost broke up last night…well actually idk if we’re still together or not but yeah. Just sick of the bullshit excuses.
Nothing else happened today.
Basically all i did was wake up at 4:30 cause the fire alarm, went back to sleep till 8:30, finished my HWST study guide, went to psych to take the final, then studied for hawaiian, then took that final, went back to my dorm for a bit, went jogging, went to work, then went to the gym, ate dinner, showered &now I’m wasting my time on the computer :D
Im thinking about going to get a massage later cause they don’t start giving massages till 10:45 sooo yeah.
December 8
SO. Obviously i don’t write what i do every day on here anymore xD
But I’ve been super busy. Aaaaand not much has been going on.
BUT i did go back to Maui on Dec 2-5 because my grandma was in the hospital &she got diagnosed with lung cancer :((((( But we’re all staying positive! She will survive!
Um what has been going on? Well lets see, lots of fricken studying, essays, &bullshit.
On the plus side, i love getting paid. I look forward to every 5th &20th of every month cause i get paid so well :D And of course i save it, duhh.
Well anyway what else has been going on before i actually say what i did today? Umm well i went to the city lights parade w/ daren, ian &marisa! SUPER PRETTY. I wanna go there with Kody so bad one day but i have a feeling i won’t be able to. Ummm i watched the Wahiawa Christmas parade with my boyfriend &his family. Oh &yesterday (the 7th) was the first time i saw my boyfriend in a month!
Right now, I’m suppose to be doing my 3 paged single spaced essay which is due on monday -__-. Aaaaand I’m suppose to be studying for finals, which obviously I’m not cause I’m typing this.
Well anyway, today i went to ala moana to do a little christmas shopping! i spoiled myself with buying a $49 perfume! BOMBSHELL. My favorite <3 And i bought my grandma some hand sanitizer since she asked for some &my boyfriends mom &family some stuffs. And i bought my sister this huge thing from victorias secret that was like $85 so she better appreciate me! UGH. Hers cost the most.
After that i came back to my dorm, called my grandma &i was gonna go running but i ended up falling asleep till 6. Then i ate dinner at 6:30 and spent the rest of my meals at the market! I bought an oreo cookie ice cream thing, nilla wafers &strawberries :D
Well i should sleep now, going to drop off my boyfriends families presents tomorrow. Whooooop.
Sept 28-Oct 1
I went back to Mauuuuuui over the weekend!
On Friday my grandma and sister picked me up from the airport &went to costco right after cause i wanted strawberries.
Then we went home and my sister and her boyfriend went to the fair and my grandma and i had dinner. FRIED RICE, cause i was craving some homemade kine food.
On Saturdaaaay, i forget what me and my grandma did but i know we went to TJ’s. And for dinner we went to Antoniooooos :) Oh yeah &i also had an orthodontist appointment for my retainers. UGH.
On Sunday was like a chill day i think? My grandma and i went walking around Keopuolani since she hasn’t been walking since i left. Then we went home and ate dinner. My last night D;
Monday i came back to oahu. i was sad cause it was nice spending time with my family and dog and cat :( i miss my doggie sooo much! But yeah, back to school.
October 6…. i think? LOL.
Um yeah, spent the whole day at BB’s house. Hailey is always happy to see me. I also went to his house on the 7th. LOL. Mmmmmmm yeah. I don’t really remember what we did.
OH, he made me breakfast :)))) It was super good. And we watched a movie i think?
He got in trouble for not doing the grass…and things weren’t good. But i cheered him up :)
Ummmmm i don’t remember what else xD
But other than that weekend, the week i got back from Maui was hectic. I had 4 exams in 2 weeks and a quiz &an essay. SO HECTIC I HATE COLLEGE.
October 13
SO. Yesterday after the homecoming fair thing, i was going back up to my room &as i was getting out of the elevator, my key, laundry card AND ID all fell between that fucking crack in the elevator. WTF BRO. So now i can’t really go anywhere cause that ID was my life! I could go where ever the fuck i wanted with the bus without having to pay. And now, i have to buy a new one for $45! SUCKS DICCCCKKKK.
Anyway, today i wanted to go to the pumpkin patch with Kody, but NO. So that was cancelled..and cause i didn’t have my ID anyway. So i ended up hiking in Manoa falls. I didn’t go all the way though cause there was one point where it looked so weird and like forest like and i had no idea where the trail went xD LOLOL. But i went pretty far.
It was suuuuuper hot. I was sweating like crazy but it felt good cause my fat was coming off.
DAMN IVE BEEN GAINING SO MUCH WEIGHT. Its terrible. I swear to you, i’m pregnant.
Buuuuut yeah. And i can’t go to the gym till i get my new ID. Huhuhuhu.
What else did i do today, i went to Nijia or something and bought foooood! Something I’ve been needing to buy like good kine food cause I’m sick of cafeteria food! UGH.
&Yeaaah, im gonna go running at like 5:30, or whenever the sun gets less hot. LOLOL. Made no sense.
I also can’t go to my first college homecoming game since my ID is long gone! MOTHER FUCKER.
September 22, 2012
I haven’t been posting anything lately for a month cause I’ve been SUPER BUSY with college. But ill give you an overview of what I’ve been doing since I’ve moved to oahu.
Okay soooo i moved into my dorm, met new people, saw my boyfriend on my birthday, went to the beach, school, homework, writing essays, got a job :D, ummm eating too much, gaining weight, went to Leilehuas homecoming game, my boyfriend slept over my dorm &he got into trouble. LOL. Uhhh what else..the day i moved here i was super scared. Um um um i got a fridge, and microwave. My roommate is pretty nice she just doesnt like to share, of like she likes to have her own things. I’ve been so damn busy with school! UGH. And now i have work, i work every day. I like shopping here theres more options to choose from. Yeaah thats pretty much it? Haha, went ice skating last Friday. Thats about it. And went to my first football game on saturday sept 15.
